Mind Obliterated

Still can't comprehend this last week, guys. A wave of emotion. My mind feels blown apart, I can't even think strait! Been rainsoaked, healthy belly, body drained, eyes soppy and heart sunk.

On Saturday Sister Favre picked us up to visit some potential investigators and invite them to church. After 4 un-knocked doors Brandon opened up. He had bailed our offered ride to church last week and his phone had been turned off. He is a shy, young guy and muttered he had read the Intro of the BOM. After rereading it with him to assure him it's divinity, Sister Favre began bearing testimony. It took me a moment to push my jaw up from hanging ajar, she was going more bold than anticipated. But suddenly, as tears approached her eyes and her voice cracked a powerful wave of spirit crashed into each of us. Brandon, having had little religious experience, was intent with what our Sister had to share.

 

She said he was so important, such a good man, she could just feel it! And this gospel is true and it is for him and he needs to let us keep teaching him. After he gave Sister Favre a hug, then assured us he would come to church the next day, he also reminded us he was moving to a new address which he knew not.

He did not show up to church. We went by yesterday, his home is now empty and deserted. His phone is disconnected. Brandon is gone.

It's exhilerating, though, to be a growing missionary. In Hutch I left so many loved ones behind, and have been reluctant to open my heart to Harrison Park because of how difficult it is to say goodbye to an area for possibly ever. At last I have been investing heart and soul in the people here, feeling their sorrows and struggles, and mourning for their missed potential and WHY does it have to be so painful?? "Thou shalt offer a sacrifice unto the Lord thy God in righteousness, even that of a broken heart and a contrite spirit." ...Perhaps it is supposed to painful. "But learn that he who doeth the works of righteousness shall receive his reward, even peace in this world, and eternal life in the world to come" (D&C 59). God is so stinkin nice to us.

My cousin and best friend was married and sealed for eternity this last weekend. WOW. I remember when my investigators told me they planned to be sealed a year after their baptism. I don't recall EVER feeling that much joy, ever. I am so proud of Katie, I am so excited. I have never experience that sealing power and covenant, but I feel it's blessings and I know it is one of God's greatest gifts! I am so sad I could not be there, but I'm honored to be doing the Lord's work here in the K-dub mission.

Love you all!! Apply the atonement! Enlargen your capacity! Study and pray! Hope to hear from you soon :)

Best,

Sister Murphy